Will it be enough?

http://www.michaelmain.com/2005_02_01_theach.html#110927734920351067

I was reading my friend Michael’s blog about a man who has lost his wife to cancer and how this man is very independent and the only person he had relied on was his wife. It made me wonder about what would happen to my husband when I die. (I’m not going anywhere anytime soon.)

My husband totally relies on me for most everything. That’s probably why our marriage works for us. I get to be incharge of most stuff (control issues) and he gets to be taken care of.

I pay the bills, manage the money, house and kids, do the taxes, do all purchasing (clothing, appliances, groceries, etc.), fix all meals, complete or schedule all repairs and all things medical and dental. He works (hard), mows the yard (usually without me yelling), scoops all the litterboxes, is incharge of all trash and getting it to the curb. He is more likely to clean house than I am and apparently he likes to vacuum (yuck). Laundry is about a 50/50 split but there have been years that it was all him.

I see the big difference as he has no idea how to complete all the things I do but I can easily pick up his chores. I mean, see the grass is long and cut it as opposed to when are the girls due for dental checkups, see kitty poop and scoop it as opposed to completing the taxes.

The biggest thing I do is worship God and teach the girls to follow God. Big Daddy isn’t really into religion. He has a hard time believing in anything or anyone. He has no faith. Except his faith in me to handle those things I handle.

When I’m gone what will he do? I’ve asked him if he would remarry and he said “no, once was enough. I’m just gonna hangout with my cats”. I don’t know if I should be honored or creeped out. I wonder if my church family will surround him and take care of him, show him how to do the things I do for him.

And finally, will it be enough to give him faith that we will see each other in heaven.